Chapter 8

Oh no! You can´t imagine how much I hate myself. What have I been doing in Hastings ?! Did I went crazy ? How could I have been doing this? This trip didn´t blush my problems away. It might have had made my problems bigger. I just had luck that my parents split up some years ago and I could tell my mum that I did this trip because of them. Now I just have to go to family counseling with my mum and my dad. That´s not a big problem anymore. A bigger problem is that I still don´t know if Alicia is pregnant or not. And it would become a much bigger problem if Alicia is really pregnant. And now I feel sick because I didn´t ask her about that. I stayed at home for the whole day and did nothing but eating and watching TV.

Chapter 7

Nice. I´ve got a room and a job. In Hastings. That´s all I wanted to have, isn´t it. Maybe when I´ve got enough money earned here in Hastings, I can go to another country or even work on a ship. Then I would never have problems like I have had till yesterday anymore. In some years I would become captain of ship, maybe of a big ship and maybe I would even earn a lot of money. I think that´s the dream of every lonely man who doesn´t women anymore, isn´t it ? But if I think of it,… it isn´t my dream. Not really.

Chapter 6

I don´t know if this is a dream now or not! Everything seems to be so real, you know. But it isn´t. I mean it can´t be! Or maybe I have Alzheimer, like Alicia said. Maybe I just felt asleep last night and lost my memories. I heard of people who happened things like that to. I know this sounds weird, but it might be true ! And if it was a dream, why is it so realistic ? There are no monster, no flying cars, no zombies and stuff like this. Because usually things like that are always in my dreams. So maybe I have to go to a doctor and tell him that I lost my memories. No! I can´t do this. If I do this everybody is going to think that I´m crazy. Except from Rabbit.However…